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conformity. If I know your sect, I anticipate your argument. I hear a Selfpreacher announce for his text and Reliance topic the expediency of one of the institutions of his church. Do I not know beforehand that not possibly can he say a new and spontaneous word? Do I not know that all this ostentation of examining the grounds of the institution, he will do no such thing? Do I not know that he is pledged to himself not to look but at one side; the permitted side, not as a man, but as a parish minister? He is a retained attorney, and these airs of the bench are the emptiest affectation. Well, most men have bound their eyes with one or another handkerchief, and attached themselves to some one of these communities of opinion. This conformity makes

them not false in a few particulars, authors of a few lies, but false in all

Self- particulars. Their every truth is not Reliance quite true. Their two is not the real two, their four not the real four; so that every word they say chagrins us, and we know not where to begin to set them right. Meantime nature is not slow to equip us in the prisonuniform of the party to which we adhere We come to wear one cut of face and figure, and acquire by degrees the gentlest asinine expres

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There is a mortifying experience in particular which does not fail to wreck itself also in the general history; I mean, "the foolish face of praise," the forced smile which we put on in company where we do not feel at ease in answer to conversation which does not interest us. The

muscles, not spontaneously moved, but moved by a low usurping wilfulness, grow tight about the outline Selfof the face and make the most dis- Reliance agreeable sensation, a sensation of rebuke and warning which no brave young man will suffer twice.

For non-conformity the world whips you with its displeasure. And therefore a man must know how to estimate a sour face. The bystanders look askance on him in the public street or in the friend's parlor. If this aversation had its origin in contempt and resistance like his own, he might well go home with a sad countenance; but the sour faces of the multitude, like their sweet faces, have no deep cause,—disguise no god, but are put on and off as the wind blows, and a newspaper · directs

Yet is the discontent of the multitude

more formidable than that of the Self- senate and the college. It is easy Reliance enough for a firm man who knows the world to brook the rage of the cultured classes. Their rage is decorous and prudent, for they are timid as being very vulnerable themselves. But when to their feminine rage the indignation of the people is added, when the ignorant and the poor are aroused, when the unintelligent brute force that lies at the bottom of society' is made to growl and mow, it needs the habit of magnanimity and religion to treat it godlike as a trifle of no concernment ☛☛

The other terror that scares us from self-trust is our consistency; a reverence for our past act or word, because the eyes of others have no other data for computing our orbit than

our past acts, and we are loath to disappoint them. But why should you keep your head over your shoulder? SelfWhy drag about this monstrous corpse Reliance of your memory, lest you contradict somewhat you have stated in this or that public place? Suppose you should contradict yourself; what then? It seems to be a rule of wisdom never to rely on your memory alone, scarcely even in acts of pure memory, but bring the past for judgment into the thousand-eyed present, and live ever in a new day. Trust your emotion. In your metaphysics you have denied personality to the Deity: yet when the devout motions of the soul come, yield to them heart and life, though they should clothe God with shape and color. Leave your theory as Joseph his coat in the hand of the harlot, and flee.

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